It has been months, several months since I have written a blog post. I have journaled privately, but I haven't felt like I've had anything to publicly share for a long while. I am excited and nervous to be back and I want to dedicate a lot of time to making this blog an encouragement and inspiration for others.
So, where have I been for the last seven months?
I have been trying to make sense of my life and the direction that God has for me and my family.
I'm really not trying to be heavy, I just want to be honest about what I've been going through.
Zack and I moved from Georgia to Texas in May and now we have once again moved and are living in Ohio. So basically, we have been married for a year and a half and have lived in three different states.
Oh, and did I mention that I am six months pregnant? It's been a wild ride. I can honestly say that I do not understand what God was doing in our lives and so I didn't know what to tell people or what to write. I felt like I had to explain to everyone why we made the decisions that we have made, but all I can say is we are obeying God's direction and guidance. I won't go into detail on everything that has happened in the last year and you wouldn't want to hear about it,
believe me. All I can say is I have felt a little confused and lost myself so I didn't want to blog for the last several months.
I finally realized how silly that is. I feel that I have put an unrealistic pressure on myself to portray myself and my husband in a way that makes us look like we have it all together- and
I am so sorry. You see, I think that we have a tendency in our culture to only share the best of the best. When I upload a picture to Instagram I obviously crop out the dirty sock or anything else unpleasant to give you the best picture possible. So what you see is my handsome husband holding my adorable puppy on a very clean, staged couch, and you may get the wrong impression of what our life is like. I hope this makes sense.
I've also been terribly intimidated by other bloggers. I love reading other blogs and seeing these beautiful women mother their beautiful children while crafting and cooking and writing these life changing posts on how wonderful their lives are. I really do love and appreciate their blogs, I just don't love how it has affected me. It made me feel that I needed more. I needed a bigger house with prettier things and I needed to be amazing at everything and my pictures had to prove that. So, because I don't have all the things I thought I needed, I didn't want to put myself out there. I was embarrassed. But, I've come to the realization that I may not be the only person who feels that way. So, I've decided that I am going to share my life and my family and my ministry on this blog and just be real.
I'm back for good.
Honestly, I still want to capture the best moments. I don't think that my best moments will be all that fabulous though. I am just me. I'm a normal, young newlywed who is experiencing pregnancy for the first time and I want to share that. I want to remember that. I thought I had to post these beautiful pictures of my baby bump and have the most fabulous nursery for anyone to care. But, let's be honest, there is not a whole lot of glamour involved in pregnancy as Pinterest would have us to believe. I am in my sweats with a headache and a UTI right now and my nursery is basically a storage room of all the boxes we've yet to unpack. Pregnancy is still beautiful, but not fabulous in the least. But, you should know that our baby is a boy and we are due February 20. His name is Titus and I swear I am already obsessed with this child. February can't get here fast enough!


Zack and I now live in Warren, Ohio and we are the happiest that we've ever been. I feel totally at peace about where God has us and am so excited for the ministry that we are involved in. We are renting a two bedroom, one bathroom house that is old and dishwasherless. I am grateful anyway. We painted the walls a light blue and have worked to make it cute and homey for us.
Stick around and follow the blog, cause it's about to get real up in here! I'm excited.
I missed you all.
XO, Ash